I AM GOING TO MAKE ANOTHER TUMBLR BECAUSE I HATE THIS ONE TOO AND I THINK MY EX MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE SEEN THIS ONE AT SOME POINT
I understand that you hate me but I don’t think you do. I think you still have feelings for me but since I got angry with you, you’ve been caustic with me to protect yourself and I’m sorry. I’m sorry I ruined things between us because you’re honestly beautiful and interesting and I would love to be with you again but I figure you can’t stand me. Maybe I’m bad at reading signs and maybe I’m completely misconstruing what you mean so that I can convince myself that I don’t suck but I still care about you and I miss you. I want to be a part of your life again and I can do that because I’m different now. I don’t think either of us has moved on completely. You’ve said some hurtful stuff but I think it’s only to make me feel the pain that you feel. Maybe you don’t understand that I’m always thinking of you and always depressed that I can’t be there to make you happy again. I just want to get back together because every day that I see you disheartens me from doing anything else but think of you. I’ve dreamt of you a lot. I’m sorry if this is creepy, but yeah. I just had to confess it.
I don’t think I can send this message for fear of her response. Maybe a part of me wants to keep all of this bottled up because if I don’t I’ll get hurt and rejected and the thought of her possibly still having feelings for me is too sweet to part with.
I have this constant, irrational fear that I’ll find nudes of one of my exes somewhere on the Internet.
OH FUCK YOU TUMBLR I DIDN’T WANT TO SEE THE IMAGE OF THE BASKETBALL PLAYER’S FUCKING LEG. CHRIST. FUCK.
It takes a special kind of stupid to run into a pole and hit yourself in 3 different places when there are only 4 poles in the whole school.
I’ve decided to be an even nicer person than I already am. Doesn’t it suck when you feel like nothing is going right? That everything you attempt falls to shit? Well wouldn’t it be better if, for one brief moment, someone showed some kindness and gave you what you want? That they helped you in feeling like you finally did something right?
Nothin like trying to sleep and then imagining all the shit slenderman could do to you while you’re vulnerable thus causing you to stay awake even though you’re tired as shit, am I right?